Dear Modern Diary

The kid who said to have become strong enough to hold back her emotion for her past have fallen down again. Is it part of the turbulence that should've being felt by someone who are still holding back their feelings? Could be, maybe. I need some distraction now! Distract me with other things, busy my schedule so that I don't even have time to think about my personal life, friend me like nobody business although I am rejecting you all. As I feel the most horrible now. The only one that distract me from thinking about him... So Ji Sub <3

After the big failure in my love life I tried not to overthink about it. So I started to get myself busy. With the help of my work (since now I have new position) and with my study (something for me to worry big time), I kind of slowly adjusted my life without him. Thanks to the people surrounding me who are kind enough to lend their happy thoughts and support to me although I don't even think they know what happened. I am still thankful for all the positive and negative people around me.  Like they said "failure makes you a better person". I don't even know from where I heard that but I just feel like saying it. Someone kind and sweet enough to buy me something all the way from Jepang! thank you for the ole2 Feby!

How bad does a break up can really break your heart apart? Sometimes I wonder that as I see some couple brawl their eyes out on their breaking up with the loved ones. Ahaa... Now I know how hard it is when it happens.  Reason : 1 - You love that person so much that you don't even left at least 35% for yourself. 2 - You left out the other best part of this world and dedicate your life to him/her. 3 - You have imagine a bright and happy future with your partner. 4 - You had spent so much beautiful memories with them. 5 - The person you enjoy your moments with will no longer be there with us. These are probably few reasons why they break down in tears and some even had emotional problems. I am to be honest, at this moment facing this. How bad can it be when your loved ones told you they've been thinking about few things and issues and told you they have other person in their mind on your birthday?  I, to be honest, break down at this. I am completel...