Hai, it's me and I'm back. Again, I feel this kind of insecure feeling. To be honest, my life has gone through ups and downs all these years. Things started to hit somewhere in 2021 if I'm not mistaken (my memory has become bad from all those bad memories). Starting from the rumours that disrupt my life in 2011, it happened again now . To be honest, it continue again in 2023. I know for sure this time our friendship will fall apart. I cried endlessly again for this. I have no one for me to share with unlike last time with the one I cared so much like a father but things has change and now that person was no longer with me and I can't share this problem or feeling with no one. I can only look at his picture while telling him what happen to my life now and I'm about to lose my dearly friend. I love how the fact that once I feel comfortable with that person, I start to feel happy with the friendship. Eventually, someone around you will feel jealous or uneasy due to t...