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There He Goes

DMD,
14th September is my saddest day of all. You know why? That's the day my saaa has left me :'(

I am unable to sleep again after I woke up around 4.30am. I was just waiting for my Subuh prayer and waiting for the time to reach 8am for me to get up and go out to see him for the final time. I feel sad now itself while writing this and the most epic part is that the song that was playing on the radio now is Dewa 19 Cintaku Tertinggal di Malaysia. Terbaik. Even make me sad.

I met him that day, ate breakfast with him, help him to do his final clearance and finally it's time to bid goodbye to each other. The most difficult part for me to do that I wish it would never come.

How can I not cry at the moment I have to say that word 'Good Bye' and even now I am crying at the thought of that day. Oh my God, I am hopeless am I?? Well, he is the man that I truly cared for and I love my heart out. Now I know how does it feel when you really love a person all out. He is the one I've been waiting for all this while.

But....

It's time for us to part with each other...

Drove out separately...

We reach to a path where we have to take different route but I just couldn't do that. We did take different route but I make a detour so that we could see each other again on the highway. Hopeless. That is how much I am in love with this guy DMD.

I feel like slowing down the time. Pause every button that I could press. Or just do whatever for me to have my time with him again. Oh dear...hopelessly in love mood again.

We finally arrived at the junction where we were about to be parted. That is the only time that I was looking the other way towards him and never look in front on the road ever in my driving life. There he goes....away from me. The feeling was just...sad. I finally have to say goodbye to him. 



Now he is no longer here beside me. I'm afraid I might take the way back to his place and not mine. I'm afraid I might buy breakfast for him when he is not there anymore. I'm afraid I might called him out for dinner when he is far away from me. I'm afraid I might missed him every minute of my life.



Don't forget me Saaa.

I will not forget you for sure.

I will be there whenever you need me! Call me anytime when you need me! Never hesitate at anytime when you need me! Coz I will be doing the same to you...


Yours truly,
Your Saaa
:'(

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